My quiet, bleeding wound
It was so quiet. The kind of quiet when the house is empty, the windows are closed and you’re alone, just breathing. Only I wasn’t alone. He was there. All 6ft 2in of him with his strong muscles and broad […]
It’s not my fault – right?
In 2020 Rufus, who is autistic, struggled more than we could have predicted. This struggle with the lockdown, the structureless life and the uncertainty that we were all living with, took a major toll on his mental health. This culminated […]
Don’t blame the kids, blame the system
Over the last few months I have been volunteering at a primary school. As I am looking to train as a children’s counsellor I decided that while I waited for the day Martha starts full time (giving me the time […]
My numbers
It’s now the 3rd of December and I have not weighed myself at all this year. This may seem like a strange thing to state for many people but since the age of 14 I have weighed myself every week, […]
We did it!!!!
That’s right folks, we finally got a diagnosis of autism for Rufus. We have been fully aware of his neuro-divergent status since he was very young but our first attempt to get a diagnosis was back in 2019. At that […]
I’m impotent and I hate it
I am a problem solver. I see a problem and I work to fix it. I don’t mind failure because without failure we can’t learn and use that knowledge to improve, but at the end of the process I like […]
To swear or not to swear
Today I was told off. It was fairly gently sugested to me that I should not wear clothes with swear words on them when I’m doing the school run. I haven’t been told off by a teacher in quite some […]
The War to End All Wars: My thoughts…
I have gone back and forth in my head over whether I wanted to write this post. Not because I think I’m wrong or that what I have to say shouldn’t be said but because I know that the tension […]
What a week
Over the last year I have suffered a few panic attacks. Some have been in supermarkets as I learned how to navigate one way systems, while social distancing, wearing a mask and trying not to offend others’ sensibilities. Some have […]