• My weekly thought,  Parenting

    What’s in a name?

    Today I had a hospital appointment, something I’ve had a lot of lately, and when I checked in at reception I straight away said that my name was Jennifer Koronka. I usually automatically say Jennie and then correct myself just in case the receptionist can for some reason not infer that Jennie may also be Jennifer. Anyway, today I bypassed that whole stage. I, for possibly the first time in my life, introduced myself as Jennifer. I’m going to put this strange behaviour down to the fact that I have had a UTI for three weeks (now tested positive for GBS – I’ll talk about that in another blog) and…

  • General,  My weekly thought

    Where has all the kindness gone?

    You can call me naive, you can say I’m idealistic but there is something that has been bothering me a lot lately and I need to get it off my chest. People on the internet can be really shitty sometimes. Now, before I get into this, let me make it clear that I am not talking about internet trolls. They are awful, but we know they’re awful and to be honest, so do they. I’m talking about regular people who once they sit behind a keyboard lose all sense of respect, kindness and general politeness. I, as many parents do, belong to a number of parent forums on Facebook. I…

  • My weekly thought,  Parenting

    A Good Day

    Sometimes when you’re a parent of young, crazy kids, married with a house to run, a wild cat running around and you’re pregnant with a third baby, it can feel like you never actually enjoy yourself. You always feel like you’re on some kind of treadmill or hamster wheel. Working hard to keep everything going and never stopping to actually appreciate it all. This past weekend Nick and I decided to slow down. He had had a really stressful week at work and I had been feeling quite wrung out so the weekend was marked out as a chance to just enjoy ourselves. We weren’t going to do housework, DIY…

  • General,  My weekly thought

    My funny little mind

    I am now 25 weeks pregnant and for the most part I’ve been feeling pretty good about my changing body. Given my history of eating disorders and damaging thought patterns, pregnancy is always a bit of a challenge. Once you get as far along as I am you’re hungry a lot and the weight really does start to pile on. As it’s my third pregnancy I have quite a pronounced bump and have done for a while now. I also, naturally carry my weight on my bum and thighs so that thigh gap has most definitely disappeared and I am thoroughly cushioned for sitting on hard floors. Something happened the…

  • Parenting

    The boy who thought too much?

    Rufus is 5 years old and he is more grown up than most 30 year olds I know. He’s witty, sweet and astonishingly in touch with his emotions. Just the other day Eloise was given a magazine by somebody and Rufus came over to me and honestly said ‘mummy, I feel a little jealous.’ What 5 year old recognises that emotion and can express it so easily? He’s always been like it though and has always liked us to define words that help describe his emotions. He would tell us that he was cross instead of having tantrums, he would put his arm around me when I was sad without…

  • My weekly thought,  Parenting

    Let’s get some perspective

    I’ve spoken a little about this topic before on my Youtube channel but this is the first time I’ve actually addressed it in writing. On my ‘About’ page I make a promise. I make a promise to be honest, open and transparent. I will not sugar coat my life but equally I will not overly dwell on the harder times. I want to give a measured and realistic impression of what my life is like. To begin with I have to say that I am a very lucky lady. I have two parents who are completely supportive and who have given me confidence, thoughtfulness, intelligence and independence. I also have…

  • Parenting

    Graduating Reception

    In a few weeks time I will be attending Rufus’s Reception Graduation ceremony. First let me say that I think a Graduation ceremony for Reception is ridiculous but this is the Instagram world we live in so count me in. The last year of Rufus starting school has been quite a ride. We’ve had the ups of making new friends (one of whom he is planning to marry one day), learningto read, learning to write and generally having the world open up for him. I have always been determined that I would not ‘teach’ my children but that I would aid their desire to learn. This sounds extremely hippy dippy…

  • My weekly thought

    A Blended Family

    When I married Nick (5 years ago now), I married him. I chose him. I knew that he was perfect for me. He id kind, compassionate, empathetic, very intelligent and most importantly, he loved me too. The thing about marriage is, though, that you don’t just get the person you choose. You get everyone they’re related to too. It really brings into stark focus the whole ‘for better or worse’ element of the vows. Don’t get me wrong. Nick’s family are for the most part lovely. His parents are divorced and so he has half siblings, a full brother and step siblings meaning that the family tree spreads far and…